Is There anybody out there ?
Maybe not -- but hopefully someday, someone will find this blog again. well, maybe not 'again' - New folks are welcomed too :)) . The original blog here - used to be - in the beginning "Queen Earlene's Finest " - way back in the day. (Then there was Soul Survivor: , and Soul Is Surviving, - then something else - Now this) . I had No idea what these pages would become, to or for me when I started writing here. Neither did I have an inkling what it might become to Others. Simple daily Ramblings of my untamed mind thrown out onto a blank page and people were inspired. Who knew that could even happen? Certainly Not Me. I also had no idea that I would ever abandon what had become such a huge part of my life. Not only did I abandon It-- I have deleted pages and chapters of it , - and, more importantly comments from readers - Full conversations within these pages, some of which that went on for days . I have completely Erased The Lifeblood of this blog -- and I have changed and blocked Years worth of writings, and begun new Blog Titles with new hopes when people and life would change. I started worrying more about what other people thought - than what I wrote. Every time I deleted posts, or pages, I 'thought ' I was protecting myself in some way. I wasn't. I didn't. In the long run... I basically 'burned my first draft'. yep. MY BOOK... it was ALL right here. along with YEARS of memories -- and so many GOOD ones. MY Friends. Love and Laughter and compassion... and Growth. Spiritual Growth. If only I could bring it all back . If only I could bring back every deleted post-- every deleted comforting word from a friend - or stranger, every sarcastic , funny, or uplifting word of encouragement that changed my life in more ways than one. Every Person who came by Every day unknowingly inspired me to get out of bed each day during times I would have rather not taken that first breath at sunrise. --- Then what? I guess it wouldn't change anything now, would it? But it would be nice to see and read those things again.
Regardless, I grew up in this Blog. Through these pages. Through You and with you. You all helped me through some of the hardest times of my life . And you KNOW- I have had a Hard life. You kept me sane, and you kept me alive. Y'all gave me a reason to wake up.. to GETUP, to function in life. When I have been physically and emotionally crippled -- I found the Mental strength - through YOU -- to GETUP - and Face this "Life -- On Life's Terms" , and to kick it back when it kicked me - . You all have really helped me to become a better and stronger person -- even when you maybe thought you couldn't - or weren't helping. You SO were. There is so much I have done -- for myself and for others -- that I never would have even dreamed of --- without YOU. I don't know what my life would be today without y'all. I DO know that it would not be what it is. It would be much worse, I'm sure. You are all my angels, in your own way - and I am so happy that you are a part of my life --- A wonderful , beautiful part of my life.