Friday, May 9, 2014

Licking my wounds.

Hi y'all, yup i am still here.  Where else would i be, right?
I'm not as bad as the title of this post might sound... I am however just trying to get through whatever funk this is that i am in.
I have been reading book, and watching movies... Desperately seeking.... Well, maybe the voice of God.
I am in a 'place' that is familiar to me.  But very much more scary than other times.
I feel like i need to..... Well, make some sort of huge change.   That scares me.
I feel very 'stuck'.  Here.  Emotionally, and otherwise.
I find myself... Seemingly waiting.... And i don't know what it is i'm waiting for.
This is not life.
Not a life i am supposed to be living.

So, i pray, i read, i watch.... And i am listening...and uuuggghh...waiting....
For something to ....well....something.

I hope all is well in your worlds.


  1. I think I know what you speak of. If it is the same, I am sorry that you are going around with it, too. I DO know what I am waiting for, but I wonder if I would feel better if I didn't. I'm with you in spirit and pray that you find your way to the top again, very soon. Hugs.

  2. Hi Jamie. Thanks. Im sorry that we relate so well. But its nice to have you here. I am there with you as well. You know.
    The Soul

  3. It sounds to me, Soul Sis, like you are doing all the right things... praying, reading, watching, listening, for the little voice that will give you sense of direction. "Seek and ye shall find!" The most important part is that you know you are not living the life that makes you feel happy and fulfilled. Make two lists... the things about your life you want to change, and the things you don't have in your life now that you would like. Then let's figure out how to get from A to B in baby steps! When we have some definite goals in mind, even very simple ones, it gives us something to reach out for. Maybe we could start with something you could look forward to each week. I wish I lived closer, we could play together! :-)

    BTW, maybe you could link these posts up to the Soul FB page to bring a few of the friends you love this way.

  4. I have so been there and done that. I guess it's good to know that others have a lot of the same feelings. I've been fighting serious depression for months now. Hoping that green grass and sunshine will pull me out of it. Big hugs. Hang in there. C

  5. Jos... I'll get back to you on that.
    I have thought of much of that before you wrote it here.

  6. And hells yeh...i wish we were closer too ! Distance really sucks!

  7. Val.... I had no idea that you've been hurtin... Please update, and post in our boxes. We are here for you, we have missed you.
    Its really great to see you back.

    I love and miss everyone.
    Good to see you